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How I Meditate

In order to navigate these hugely challenging times it is essential to remain centred and grounded. Guided meditations can be useful for achieving specific outcomes but having a daily practice of sitting and being will ultimately strengthen your ability to take control of your mind.

Mind control is something the Cabal have used against us through newspapers, television, film, radio etc. They have programmed our minds to think in a way that suits them and their agenda. In order to become sovereign and exit from the matrix we need to take control of our own minds.

We can aim to be like a tree with long roots that go deep into the earth, creating stability and being a source of nourishment so that when the winds and storms come we will be held straight and true in our own truth and power.

My Teacher

After I disengaged from my corporate life almost 20 years ago I followed my heart and went to art school as a mature student. Suddenly I met people of all ages and from all walks of life opening my mind to the possibilities beyond work and money. A friend introduced me to Buddhism and I read around the subject with great interest.

I found the work of Jack Kornfield, whom I later discovered my Buddhist friend knew, and followed the directions of how to meditate on his CD. I have followed his method with great results.

He has a website now:

Here is a link to the audio recording:


Sit in a comfortable position with a straight back and neck. Use a cushion for your lower back if you need extra support but don’t slouch. Choose the way of sitting that is best for you whilst remembering that we need to maintain a position of dignity and active control.

The aim isn’t to fall asleep or pass into a daydream but to sit in awareness of our bodies and our surroundings.

Block out a regular time in your calendar and set a reminder. Remember that on days when you are ‘too busy’ you need to do extra meditation. When I started meditating fifteen years ago I didn’t practice daily because I always found I had other things to do. This really held me back until I developed the discipline of sitting down everyday.


After I developed a regular habit of meditation I started getting results that assisted me in dealing with my life. For example I stopped being pulled into a downward spiral of negative thought patterns because I was in control of my mind. My ego had lost the ability to drag me down into despair and inertia.

I also developed acceptance. Acceptance about health issues and work problems enabled me to get out of knee-jerk stress responses and to be open to ways I could make changes. It was empowering not to be taken down by adverse events. Then my perception about challenges changed: they became learning experiences to give me wisdom.

In situations where I might have once been triggered into an automatic emotional reaction I was able to maintain my grounding and keep my centre. I could then respond or disengage whilst maintaining my power and dignity.


This is a step-by-step summary of my own meditation practice which is based on the teachings of Jack Kornfield. There are other methods available and you can use your own discernment as to what feels right for you. I’m not saying that my way is the only way, I’m simply offering you some basics so that you can feel confident starting your own practice without getting overwhelmed by all of the different methods.

Sit upright in a comfortable position.

Close your eyes.

Breathe normally, focussing on the breath. Feel and hear it coming in and out.

Your mind will start to wander, this will never change. The aim is not an empty mind but a mind that can be controlled.

Over time, what does change is your ability to stop the wandering earlier in the process. This is meditation.

When a thought comes into your mind label it: eg anger, worry, planning, then visualise it as a cloud floating away.

Let the thought go. Do not judge the thought and do not allow it to frustrate you; simply accept that it came and let it go.

Focus back on the breath.

Another thought will come, the more tired you are the greater the temptation to go off with that thought.

Bring it back to the breath.

Meditation is the development of mind discipline. The stronger our ability to control our mind, the greater peace we will experience in daily life.

Another thought comes, but this time you feel it is important.

Have a notepad next to you to write down important thoughts – we are opening up a channel to greater wisdom so at times we will bring down something useful. By writing it down we can let go of it but the action of writing might disrupt our flow – do what feels right for you.

Focus back on the breath.

A car horn blasts on the road outside and shocks you. Breathe and forgive the person for acting in ego.

Focus back on the breath.

Breathe in and out. In and out. Feel the rhythm.

You feel a twinge in your neck as the muscles relax. How does it feel?

Focus on the feeling without judgement. Allow it to be. Accept the pain. Focus on the pain. Let it go.

Focus back on the breath.

Breathe in and out.

A feeling of sadness comes up. Feel into it. Where is it coming from in your body. Allow the tears to flow. Release.

Focus back on the breath.

Keep going until you feel ‘the drop’.


The only expectation we should bring to the practice is that our minds will wander. We should not be coming with expectations of enlightenment or being better than others. This is our ego coming in. Let go of outcomes, accept that thoughts will come, and remember that the process is simply about letting them go.

You can set a timer for your mediation. However, you really need to keep going until you feel ‘the drop’. This is when the mind relaxes and you enter a meditative state. When I started a daily meditative practice nine years ago I allowed myself an hour to achieve this. As I have progressed sometimes I only need twenty minutes. It depends how busy I am and how stressful my life situation is. The more stress I have the more time I need to mediate.

Sometimes, if I haven’t slept well or I’ve had a busy morning, I get so tired by lunchtime that my head drops forward during the meditation. I will then submit to my need to sleep and go for a nap.

Ultimately this is about tuning into your body and how it feels without judgement. Simply accept and submit, trusting that this is what you need to maintain your health.


Why Does the World Feel Out of Balance?

Today I watched a video titled ‘Why Does the World Feel Out of Balance?’ by Glorian, a spiritual organisation that publishes books about Gnostic teachings. This video is a summary of one of the laws in The Emerald Tablets of Thoth The Atlantean, who is otherwise known as Hermes Trismegistus.

Back in Egyptian times Thoth was known as Hermes and he taught the Egyptian people about The Seven Great Hermetic Principles, one of which is The Principle of Rhythm which describes how the pendulum swing operates in our daily lives.

Everything flows, out and in; Everything has its tides; All things rise and fall; The pendulum swing manifests in everything; The measure of the swing to the right is the measure of the swing to the left; Rhythm compensates.

The Kyballion

This is like being on a fair ground ride when we get addicted to the adrenaline rush of fear and pleasure at the same time. If we live our lives like this on a daily basis eventually we will burn out and loose the ability to think objectively and be unable to solve life’s problems effectively.

The Principle of Rhythm

The Principle of Rhythm says that there is ebb and flow in everything. The Universal Pendulum is in continual motion to and fro just as the tides rise and fall, and birth moves to death. Hermes says that Rhythm is connected to Polarity and this swing between the two poles occurs on the physical, mental, and spiritual planes. Therefore every action has an opposite reaction because the Universal Pendulum is always in motion.

However, his teachings reveal that it is only on the lower planes of consciousness that humanity can be controlled by the pendulum swing. The Earth has been in the Third Dimension for thousands of years and we have been used to being at the mercy of the swing in our unconscious state of awareness.

The Cabal are very adept at esoteric teachings so they are aware of this principle and use it to control us. They use the media to create fear, pushing us to the extreme of this emotion in order that we loose our faculties of reason and right action putting us into fight or flight mode so that we make poor choices – such as taking the j@b.


Hermeticists, those who follow the teachings of Hermes, can avoid this swing from one extreme to the other through transmutation. This occurs when we move ourselves into a higher plane of consciousness from the unconscious behaviour of the Third and through the Lower Fourth Dimensions to the more conscious behaviour of the Upper Fourth and the Fifth Dimensions. This can also be described as the process of awakening from unconscious behaviour, which is programming to keep us unaware and asleep.

Transmutation occurs when we transform unconscious programmed behaviour into its opposite. The opposite of fear is love and calmness. So we can transmute a swing towards fear by going inside ourselves to find equilibrium. We can invoke this place of neutrality inside ourselves through meditation, mindfulness, and grounding into the earth. We can practise opening our hearts and feeling the love of the universe.

Our awareness of the pendulum can slow the swing down so that we are mindfully observing our emotions, feeling them but not allowing them to take us on a big pendulum ride up the to extreme only to be dramatically flung back into the opposite emotion at some future point.

The Law of Neutralisation

Thus, through willpower, we can escape the effects of the pendulum swing from one extreme emotion to the other by following the methods of the Mental Law of Neutralisation which raises the ego above the vibrations of the Unconscious Plane.

This law says that we can polarise ourselves at a desired pole by refusing to participate in the backward swing. This is denial of the power of the pendulum by refusing to allow moods or negative states to affect us, bringing the attainment of poise and mental stability.

By rising above the pendulum we can allow it to pass underneath and polarise ourselves at the positive pole of ‘I am’. Thus we refuse to be swung on the pendulum of mood.

By mastering our moods and neutralising the rhythm of the pendulum you can escape the law of cause and affect. Thus we become players and not pawns. We manifest our own reality rather than self inflicted suffering. We are no longer trapped on the plane of effects: for example by not reading the newspapers we allow the fear to circulate under us as we go into a meditation to raise our vibration and transcend in an upwards motion toward love and light. This in turn will affect our environment and the people we come into contact with.

About Thoth/Hermes

Thoth / Hermes was the son of Enki, the Anunaki brother who made the primitive workers used as slaves to mine gold for the Anunaki. Hermes taught the slaves about ascension from the matrix through the foundation of the ancient mysteries.

Hermes was a God in ancient Greece who lived for 300 years and was later known as Thoth in Egypt. In Ancient Greece Hermes Trismegistus was the God of Wisdom. In Ancient Egypt, as Thoth, he was known as the ‘Scribe of the Gods’. He was a contemporary of Abraham from The Old Testament and gave Abraham some of his mystical knowledge. Today we can see that all esoteric teachings and religions have a basis in the teachings of Hermes.

However, much was kept secret because the enlightened knew that the barbarians would kill those who told the truth. This was the case with the killing of Jesus, the Romans suppressing the knowledge of the Gnostics by killing the teachers, the witch hunts carried out by the Catholics, and now the denial by the masses that certain medical interventions can hurt or kill us.

The Hermetic teachings were lost at the time of Constantine due to the suppression of the Gnostic teachings and the rise of the fake Roman religion of Christianity, which was forced on the population of the Roman Empire. The Library of Alexandria, which held many important scrolls, was burned and much of the knowledge was lost or taken to the vaults under the present day Vatican. Thus the teachings were known as being Occult, or hidden.

The Kybalion

The teachings of Hermetic Philosophy were republished at the beginning of the 20th century in a book called The Kybalion. It was published in the understanding that humanity was ready to master the mental forces can apply the knowledge to their daily lives. It can be bought from bookshops or read online here:


The Glorian video simplifies Thoths teaching of the pendulum swing and can be viewed here:

The Emerald Tablets of Thoth:

Further Research

I recommend visiting Gerald Clarks Channel on YouTube for his reading of the Emerald Tablets which can be viewed via this playlist:

Understanding Physical Illness Through Shamanic Healing

This is an example of how Spiritual Healing can work alongside allopathic medicine and surgery to assist healing in the physical body.

Due to high blood loss I was taken to hospital where a CT scan showed an 11 cm diameter fibroid in my uterus connected down one edge to the middle layer of the uterine wall which required urgent surgery.

My Shamanic teacher, Scott Silverston, conducted a distance healing on me to address the spiritual aspects of the illness. He and his spirit helpers entered my uterus and saw a cut in the back wall which couldn’t heal due to a sword stabbing in from behind. This was causing heavy bleeding.

The spirit guides showed Scott how my mother had been stabbing me in the back all of my life with her anger and judgment of me. I had a pattern which was set in childhood whereby my mother would use me to process her emotions for her which left me tired, drained, and lacking the energy to fulfil my potential.

The spirit helpers conversed with her and she told them she didn’t like that ‘I am no longer taking care of her emotional needs’ and that ‘I am prioritising my own needs over hers’.

The sword was removed by the spirit helpers holding onto it as I made the choice to walk away along my true path where my mother cannot follow. The guides discover that she is a soul thief who has gained power for herself by taking my soul parts which she is told to return so that I can regain my personal power. She has hundreds of them, hidden away in different places and initially refuses to return them!

I keep the sword as a reminder of martyrdom, the old experiences, and the wounds that I bear that drove me to seek a new path. I pick up the sword to cut away the obstacles that are holding me back from realising my true potential.

I now stand in a warrior position with the broadsword pointing up to the sky and I’m standing strong in my power: nothing will get in my way.

This experience has taught me that sustained emotional abuse by a narcissist can be a cause of illness in the physical body. Indeed through my research I discovered that abuse in childhood is listed on some websites as a cause for fibroids which then grow bigger with increased stress.